Matter of the Heart @ PHCDay 4.25-May 23,2016
Last night was the straightest sleep I’ve had back here at the PHC since my re-admisssion last Thursday. After turning in at 9:00 pm taking my ½ dose of diazepam, better known as valium, I woke up sometime between 10:30-10:45. My wife was soundly asleep, so I tried to relieve of the usual “2nd” order of business of the day, to little success.
Once again almost by default, I found myself opening MUHH for the day. The Lord highlighted the coming day/s for me, beginning with…Matthew 6:25
Jesus sums up common sense carefulness in a disciple as infidelity.(Oh boy💘)
Take no thought …”—don’t take the pressure of forethought upon yourself. It is not only wrong to worry, it is infidelity, because worrying means that we do not think that God can look after the practical details of our lives, and it is never anything else that worries us.
I will not trust where I cannot see, that is where infidelity begins.
The great word of Jesus to His disciples is abandon.
After reading and ingesting these words as I went back to bed, the main word amongst all those I listed, the Holy Spirit quietly whispered to me continually was, “abandon.” I turned the TV on for a half hour and watched tennis and only then did I fall asleep at 12:00am and awoke at 6:30am this morning.
It was not till I literally abandoned myself to the caring hands of my Lord and Savior, Lord and God, Jesus Christ did sleep find its way back since last Thursday. There have been concerns on my heart that included escalating costs and my sanity of being confined to bed for nearly 4 weeks now. But as He whispered, “abandon” to my whole being, it spoke volumes that brought me a quiet calm. He gave me rest and peace for the day.
Today He gives and assures in me His word in Isaiah 30:15a “For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” That is what He has chosen for me today.
This is a moment by moment practice that needs a lot practicing for me, even in the little and mundane things. Where do I start?
Sunday night visitors: Errol, Cynthia, Lorenza, May
Saturday afternoon visitors: Uncle Ruding, Auntie, Beth, Dina
Tuesday: Neny & Mars