Waiting…but God

The days seem longer as I wait for my departure. The call of the LORD my God is unmistakable. Of this one thing I am confident, “That He who began a good work in me will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ…
Philippians 1:6

Why then does doubt hit me hard in moments like these? My beloved is waiting, ministering to those the Lord our God has appointed, and yes, how I long to be with her. But my hope is in God.

Father, the waiting is unbearable. Where are friends when I want to cry out, “How much longer must I wait?Where is the help, the provision!

Where are they who would give ear to my cry? Others would say, “What if you didn’t really hear God’s call? Are you sure this is what God wants you to do? How are you going to make it there?” Do these same thoughts cross my mind? If only for a brief moment, but God…

He brings me back to His Word…like Peter, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the Words of eternal life.1” Oh how great the temptation to give up and once again depend on my flesh, to make a way, instead of waiting on the Lord. But though I may at many moments be faithless, He is faithful to comfort and remind me He is God. “Is anything too difficult for God 2?”

My thoughts betray me, the fear, the anxiety, the loneliness, the longing, all these takes its toll without end it seems. I seek for comfort, for words of encouragement, but God…

He tells me write a letter for the churches. I ask, “but Lord, what if they don’t receive it gladly? What if they do not…” I am met with silence. He has given me His Word, His promise, need He say more?

So I did, the letters have gone out, to share the vision of the call for the Bible College where His Word will be taught, where missionaries will be trained to follow the example of our Lord Jesus Christ through the study of God’s Word. Writing it was a labor; the old man warred with the Spirit in its writing. In my ability, there is no good thing, but God…

I sought the scriptures to share His Word for the church to support the work of those who labor for the Lord…there are many dear ones, there is a lot…from Abraham to David to the Lord Jesus and yes, even to Paul, most specially through him who followed in His footsteps.

My heart cries out to my LORD, my GOD, will no one hear? He again reminds me, “the battle is the Lords 3Be still and know that I am God 4…”

The Ephesian church was rebuked by the Lord because they had left their first Love, but He encourages them to “remember…repent…and do the deeds you did at first 5”, if not, the lampstand will be removed; to the church in Smyrna 6, He says that “I know your tribulation and poverty, but you are rich…” and still He reminds them, “Do not fear what you are about to suffer…Be faithful until death, and I will give you the crown of life.

This morning, the Lord reminded me, the same He reminds to each and everyone He has called, “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also 7but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you 8.”

Dear family, friends, where is your treasure? Did your heart follow?

Are you seeking great things for yourselves, or are you seeking the Lord and all that He is9.
Jeremiah 45:5

Do you inquire in His temple, the temple of the Lord, to behold His beauty, the beauty of the Lord 10. Psalm 27:4

Therefore, dear soul and dear ones, remember the Words of Jesus,

“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.”
John 14:1-2

Lord of the Harvest

“And how shall they preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace, Who bring glad tidings of good things!”
Romans 10:15

Aug 18, 2012

I left before 12 noon and dropped off my dirty clothes at the Citrus Laundromat by De La Salle University. The Lord led me to WalterMart along the way. I got some 3-in-one Nescafe coffee, saw the myriad of sweet treats trying to figure what I can bring as a cake of sorts to celebrate Dada’s 53rd birthday with the Yakal Bible Study group.

After much thought, I decided to make tuna sandwich and got chocolate cupcakes with yummy vanilla filling, along with the coffee and the memory of the Pancit Bihon na binalot sa dahon ng saging that we shared the previous Saturday.

My next order of business was to fuel at the Petron Gas Station along the highway which is becoming “my” Avanza’s regular pit stop.

His name is Johnny Asuncion and he got to be the first of ten souls reaped for the Lord’s harvest that day. What a nice way to begin the day, he gave me fuel for my car and I shared with him fuel for his life. The energy that keeps on going…the Holy Spirit.

The Lord kept me in good company, the drive was smooth and easy that I had an hour before the Bible Study, which was scheduled for 3 PM. The Lord guided me and I found myself at the Eternal Gardens Memorial Park. I realized I had not visited my Tatay’s and Nanay’s gravesite. My mother passed in 2010 wherein I was not able to see her interred, it just seemed perfect that I found myself there.

I couldn’t find their location and was helped by Ipeng, one of the caretakers who also couldn’t locate it…I was ushered into the office and by God’s design found out that there was another body, two even, buried next to the space that was my mother’s.

Ipeng showed me the location and before I knew it, I was asking him if he knew that eternal life is promised to both believer and unbeliever. “Do you know where you’re heading to, knowing that death is always staring at you everyday?” He said he was an INK and had moved to Biñan from Davao and haven’t been active in his faith. He also was not able to bring his wife into the INK faith.

What a door the Lord has opened! After sharing the truth of the Gospel, with tears in His eyes he said he wanted to have an assurance that he is forgiven and will have eternity in heaven. We prayed together and the angels praised the Lord in heaven, and he knew it! I told him that now that he is born again, he can lead his wife in this new life that he gets to live in faith in the Christ who loved him and died for him. That was number 2.

I was just in time for the Bible Study, our second. While waiting for the others, I had John, my nephew rehearse the music for some songs that we sing at CLC. I got to talk to Lina who is the Yaya for my two grand-nieces and she got saved too (#3). We started singing, and since my sister-in-law is an “evacuation center” for three families displaced by the flooding in Biñan, one family joined us. They came with three children, ages 4, 5 and 7 years old. The songs had to be adapted so the kids could learn and sing with us. You should have been there…I had no doubt that the angels were praising the Lord with us!

At the end of our study, I knew that God wanted this family saved and so it was, after letting them know that their good works and their practices won’t save them, I asked, “Do you both have the confidence that you are going to heaven when you die?”

The wife said boldly that she was confident. I asked how she was sure and she said because she does good and follows the rules, like the 10 commandments. I asked her if she really hasn’t broken any of the commandments and she said again that she hasn’t. I told her that she just lied to me and to the rest of the group.

Tell me have you ever stolen loose change from your parents when you were little? Have you always obeyed your parents when you were growing up? Have you never lied about going to school when you actually did not?

And that my dear is how we address our Catholic cousins…after I explained the truth about man’s natural tendency to sin and that only Jesus can forgive her, all of them agreed that they need to be saved.

God was pleased to see all of them (4,5,6,7,8,9), even the little ones praying for forgiveness and confessing that Jesus is Lord and Savior. Even Naty (10), Koyang’s ex- Yaya finally made a confession this time. She was the only one left behind two years ago during my last visit when the household made a confession as I led them.

God is so good. He has been preparing these souls just for me to reap and all for His glory. I do not deserve to see His goodness and faithfulness but He lets me be part of His harvest because He chose me. That I should go and bear fruit for His kingdom…John 15:16

There we have it….ten souls that day. The number of righteousness. They have been made righteous by the blood of Jesus Christ. And I got to see it happen….O, praise the Name of Jesus!

Sunday. I took them to a church nearby thinking it will be good that the church is close to them, they can really get involved and learn to serve. I got it all figured, I forgot to really inquire of the Lord. The short end of it was they got to make a public confession of their new-found faith.

Ode to Love…

Of Today

I thank the Lord that He has you in His care each day.
He reminds me of my priorities,
why does He remind me all the time?
Throughout my day, I long to put my arms around you,
To embrace you like there is no tomorrow,

Not wanting to ever leave your side;
To feel the touch of your lips on mine;
To hear you say my name;
To have a dialogue about God;
What He has shown you, and to share that beauty with me;
And to hear your voice ask me gently,
“What is God showing you today?”;

To be able to watch you, even in sleep, with beauty and grace;
To consider what God is doing by allowing me into your life,
Our union draws me closer to His throne;

Many blessings in life, I have taken for granted;
Never again shall it be,
And yes, to be with you in blessed one-ness.
O my dearest, I thank God for you, and for His grace.

by Newman


…of yore

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday’s
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, – I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! – and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Reminders…its been a month

For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. But now faith, hope, love, abide these three…
1Corinthians 13:12-13

Happy Monthsary! A common practice in the Filipino culture is the celebration of life in its beginning. It could be a birthday, a wedding anniversary, or any occasion one finds important to mark as a monthly reminder of the first year.

A beginning….that is continually celebrated, just as we celebrate our life in Christ Jesus. It can last a lifetime, or till the end of one’s faith in the life or occasion being memorialized. May that not be so!

…but the greatest of these is love.

I am celebrating with my Savior our 1st Monthsary in Dasmariñas. It is a temporary holding place He set up for me, and Stephen (a.k.a Rizty) whom He chose to detain until such time He deems perfect to re-unite us.

Today He takes my feet to Robinson’s Galeria, and I await the doors to open. The ” mallers”, “coolers”, and the true shoppers, walk into a Jollibee fast food outlet. World (as in world of Pinoys) famous for its “Chicken Joy”, it surprised me to see the people traffic wanting to be fed breakfast or brunch so early in the day. Lunch maybe? Or like me, waiting for the doors to open.

What is the purpose in every one’s heart as they sit and wait? What might they be attempting to remember, or perhaps forget?

Suriin natin(selah):

What do you consider worth remembering while you live this life on earth (eretz)?

“I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives, and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor, it is the gift of God.”
Ecclesiastes 3:12-13

Do you know where you are going when your transitory life is over?

“I know that whatever God does, It shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it, And nothing taken from it. God does it, that men should fear before Him.”
Ecclesiastes 3:14

What the author of Ecclesiastes is reminding us is that it is God who does it, and is doing it everyday. Why? John 3:16

If you hear His voice, do not ignore Him because the Bible tells us,”For “whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved.How? I’m glad you asked, “that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

He also tells us,”But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name.

That’s right, when you receive the gift of salvation from God through Jesus Christ, you become a child of the King of Kings!!!

Who you are…