The days seem longer as I wait for my departure. The call of the LORD my God is unmistakable. Of this one thing I am confident, “That He who began a good work in me will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ…”
Why then does doubt hit me hard in moments like these? My beloved is waiting, ministering to those the Lord our God has appointed, and yes, how I long to be with her. But my hope is in God.
Father, the waiting is unbearable. Where are friends when I want to cry out, “How much longer must I wait?” Where is the help, the provision!”
Where are they who would give ear to my cry? Others would say, “What if you didn’t really hear God’s call? Are you sure this is what God wants you to do? How are you going to make it there?” Do these same thoughts cross my mind? If only for a brief moment, but God…
He brings me back to His Word…like Peter, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the Words of eternal life.1” Oh how great the temptation to give up and once again depend on my flesh, to make a way, instead of waiting on the Lord. But though I may at many moments be faithless, He is faithful to comfort and remind me He is God. “Is anything too difficult for God 2?”
My thoughts betray me, the fear, the anxiety, the loneliness, the longing, all these takes its toll without end it seems. I seek for comfort, for words of encouragement, but God…
He tells me write a letter for the churches. I ask, “but Lord, what if they don’t receive it gladly? What if they do not…” I am met with silence. He has given me His Word, His promise, need He say more?
So I did, the letters have gone out, to share the vision of the call for the Bible College where His Word will be taught, where missionaries will be trained to follow the example of our Lord Jesus Christ through the study of God’s Word. Writing it was a labor; the old man warred with the Spirit in its writing. In my ability, there is no good thing, but God…
I sought the scriptures to share His Word for the church to support the work of those who labor for the Lord…there are many dear ones, there is a lot…from Abraham to David to the Lord Jesus and yes, even to Paul, most specially through him who followed in His footsteps.
The Ephesian church was rebuked by the Lord because they had left their first Love, but He encourages them to “remember…repent…and do the deeds you did at first 5”, if not, the lampstand will be removed; to the church in Smyrna 6, He says that “I know your tribulation and poverty, but you are rich…” and still He reminds them, “Do not fear what you are about to suffer…Be faithful until death, and I will give you the crown of life.”
This morning, the Lord reminded me, the same He reminds to each and everyone He has called, “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also 7…but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you 8.”
Dear family, friends, where is your treasure? Did your heart follow?
Are you seeking great things for yourselves, or are you seeking the Lord and all that He is9.
Do you inquire in His temple, the temple of the Lord, to behold His beauty, the beauty of the Lord 10. Psalm 27:4
Therefore, dear soul and dear ones, remember the Words of Jesus,
“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.”